Excuses or reality?

I think that I have discovered that for me, this dieting thing is going to be in spurts and fits. After being so successful the other week, the last 2 have been only okay. I am definitely making good choices although they may not be the "best" choice. We were getting new kitchen appliances last week so it was a lot of eating out. The last few weeks of school are always crazy. Like I said, I am still making good choices. This is keeping me from gaining, but I am not really losing. My attitude is different though. I am not seeing it as a failure but as a reality of life. There will be some weeks where I am less motivated and there will be some weeks where there is a lot going on and my focus is elsewhere. There will also be weeks where I am gung ho.

I went to the endocrinologist yesterday. She said that even though my primary care physician has been hesitant to say I have diabetes, I really do have it. She said that it is very mild and that it may go away with weight loss. For now, I have not been able to manage it through diet and exercise alone. My blood sugar does not change at all when I exercise which is weird. There are 2 types of diabetes medicine. One type lowers blood sugar while the other either increases this other hormone you need or inhibits the blocking of that hormone. I have already been taking the type that lowers your blood sugar. She wants me to take the other type as well. There are 2 forms; one oral, one injected. The one you inject actually makes most people also lose a significant amount of weight. I opted for that one. So now I get to inject myself twice a day. It isn't too bad. I am giving myself a pass this week on a lot of things until I get used to the new medicine. They said that it can make you nauseous. I haven't really been nauseous yet, but it does give me a fluttery feeling in my stomach. Almost like nervousness when I drink too much caffeine. It isn't entirely unpleasant, just weird.

I didn't weigh in last week. I expect that today I will be either the same or maybe a pound higher. It will be interesting to see how this new medicine helps.

Lost 3.8, 7.2 total

I couldn't believe it. This week I had the pizza and beer. The next day we went to Pappadeux. It was my splurge day but since I had a couple of drinks the night before, I didn't feel like drinking a lot so I only had one wine spritzer that I made myself with diet soda. We ordered a rich appetizer and I had some bread. I ordered shrimp wrapped in bacon. It had 6 jumbo shrimp. Everyone else ordered fish and it was huge. About halfway through the meal everyone started talking about how full they were. It made me pause and decide to take half of my meal home although I really could have finished it and had actually planned to finish it! I shocked myself. Sunday I had my leftover shrimp and rice for breakfast and then we went to a festival at my husband's church. I shared a funnel cake with the family and had an egg roll and 2 kebobs with fried rice (I gave half of my rice to my husband). I did make sure that I had a low point reasonable dinner. Yesterday, Jessie, my 9 year old had allergy testing. Her whole back ended up in hives so I let her choose where to take her for lunch. She chose Burger King. I calculated my points and had enough for a Whopper with cheese and a small onion rings (I gave half of the onion rings to Jessie) if I ate dinner only and no snacks. Of course I made it to dinner but was still hungry after dinner so I had some snacks and went a little over my points. I did make sure I drank a lot of water yesterday. I was really surprised by the scale today. I think I need to celebrate by getting some exercise.

I did find that it is harder to stop when I have too many treat days in a row even if I stay within my points. We will see how this week goes. I am going to concentrate on the exercise and water. I have 2 Mother's Day events at school, a baseball game with friends on Friday night and then Mother's Day. I plan to do the best I can without feeling denied.

Proud of myself

We had an impromptu party with friends last night and I stayed withing my points! I had already planned on having pizza for dinner so I was saving my points all day. When my friends all got together and we started having a few beers, I got a little nervous. I am going out tonight and was saving my splurge for then. I have been unsure what to do when I have more than one event in a week. It turned out fine. I was drinking light beer and then I modified how much pizza I had. When I reached the end of my points, I made the decision to stop. I didn't feel denied. It was a great victory for me. I am well aware that I may not always make the same decision, but it feels good to know that I can decide to stay within my points and still have a good time.

Gained 1.2

Now it is time to practice what I preached last week. I really did do everything right this week. I counted everything I ate and I exercised every day but one. It was a bit frustrating last night but I am okay. I think that it was good that I prepared myself. At least I have a record to show my doctor that I am doing what I should. I also can talk to the Weight Watchers leader to see if I should make changes. I see the endocrinologist in a few weeks also. I have been keeping my food logs and dating them so I can bring them in.

I had a really good counseling appointment yesterday. She really helped me with getting over the guilt of taking this time for myself.

I will continue to exercise this week and count my points and really try to focus on mu water intake and see what happens next week.